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分类:心情杂想 创建于:2007-05-05 被查看:2523次来源: 未名交友 [回复]
老哥大我三岁,从小到大,总是跟在他屁股后面,又总是扭打在一张床上,生命的轨迹时而交叉,时而分开。回头看看,才发觉老哥是对我成长影响最最重要的一个人。

几乎我所有的兴趣都曾受过老哥的启蒙,或鼓励,或打压。

第一次感到崇拜老哥,是听街坊邻居说老哥8岁读东周列国志,这件事的最直接的影响,就是若干年后,我的第一部长篇小说就取名西周志异。

老哥喜欢看书,历史书,名著,甚至各类棋谱。老哥高中迷恋姚雪垠的李自成,我也臭屁的跟在后面悄悄的跟读;大学暑假回国,老哥见面,推给我一套翻的有些卷 了的书,一看,封面赫然几个大字:金瓯缺--没听说过。当面不屑一顾,老哥笑笑不语,过了几天,果然我就躲在洗手间读那只金瓯。直到看完了,还不知道金瓯 什么意思,后来无意中看到,原来金瓯就是镀金的脸盆。看来,当初在洗手间看,还真是应题了。于是,大学每年回国,就偷看老哥的私家图书馆,四年下来,上百 套的巨著也囫囵吞枣的自以为是的走马观花了一趟。

当然,除了正经读物,老哥的图书馆里,武侠小说也不少。小学里有一次,老哥问我,最喜欢那本书,那个人。我想也不想的说:杨过。老哥笑笑,是因为杨过比较有个性,所以你喜欢他。我一板三正经的说道:杨过至情至性。老哥笑了,你现在懂什么至情至性。听了这个评价,我自然似懂非懂的点了点头。

老哥也喜欢写随笔。我小学时,愚愚钝钝,老哥嘲笑我是庄子书里的中央帝王,我听了喜滋滋,一直到后来从老哥的图书馆翻到了庄子的原文,才知道原来是说我混 沌--倒也中肯。我中学有一个语文老师,年纪老大,脾气也老大,同学唤他王老头子。这老头子,很是好为人师,上课教语文,课后拉了一帮人马业余补习古文, 我倒是听得兴味盎然,可惜好景不长,很快业余班就老头子和我两个人,大眼瞪小眼。老头子倒也不气馁,很快又东山再起,这次居然搞了个世界语班,从国文走向 世界,当属王老头子为执牛角辈。当然,结局不言而喻,唯一的收获是,我至今都记得如何卷着舌头说同志们好。老头子三年教下来,我对中文兴趣大增,开始喜欢 写随笔,后来的语文老师居然还颇喜欢,于是我又喜滋滋的拿了一片自以为的佳作,让老哥拜读。老哥看了看,淡淡的说:“写的还可以,就是华而不实。”我听 了,不以为然,摇摇头:“文人相轻。”二十年后,写了西周志异,自己看看,诸般优劣之中,果然以华而不实居首--老哥,诚不我欺矣。

说完文学说科学。

老哥从小喜欢数学。我上了初中,老哥正色问我,喜欢哪科?我茫然半响,自然答道:数学。老哥又是摇摇头:“你这么小,不要随便说自己喜欢什么,限死自己。 将来你才能知道。”又被老哥说中了,初二物理课开了,我立刻明白,自己一生的死敌来了。后来,我转战数理化,却始终心底以物理学家自居。

老哥又问我,将来想做什么,我刚看了爱因斯坦的传记,想也不想的说:科学家。老哥摇摇头,丢给我一片文章,题目是:美国的终身教授之路。十二岁的我,正是那个中央帝王,糊里糊涂,什么都没看进,就记得终身教授这个词,觉得超酷,于是志愈坚。

18岁,消息传来,我拿到了全额奖学金,可以出国了。老妈当机立断:不能送子入虎口。外国,那是我们小钕呆的吗?老爸发话,大丈夫志在四方,去。于是老哥 最终投决定票(我一向位卑言轻,有发言权,没表决权)。老哥看看我,摇摇头:“我看阿拉阿尼头,如果出国,肯定会成绩大跌,生活不能自理,最后仓皇回窜 的。”老妈大喜,老爸不屑:“老大总是帮你妈的。”老哥又接着说:“所以,我建议让阿尼头出国。”众人大跌眼睛。而我当时看见闹钟走时不准,正在一边调发 条,于是人生中一个重大决定,就在我“原则上缺席”的情况下通过了。

一年后,我回国探亲,虹桥机场出来,上海的冬天阴沉沉的,还未完全出机场口,就听见老妈的大呼小叫,老爸照例训斥她道:公众场合,这么大嗓门干吗。说着,上来拉着我手,眼睛里有些异样,倒仿佛一年前机场送行的样子。老哥还是老样子:“哪能(意,怎么)还是这么傻?”

回家之后,我兴奋不已,和老哥谈论国家大事,几个领导人的名字背的滚瓜烂熟,拿着国外报纸上看来的社论滥竽充数。老哥居然点点头,被蒙住了:“不错么,总算不再是中央帝王了。”

除去这一次,还有一次也把老哥镇住了。老哥问我,喜欢哪个哲学家。我看着他似笑非笑的深情,心里一动,把到了嘴边的康德收了回去,说了维特根斯坦。老哥诧异:维特根斯坦?我没看过他的。我得意状,心想,我还不知道你图书馆里谁的书多,谁的书少?不过,四海也是从一而终的人,自从说了这句后,小维就成了我生命中的维他命了。

越说越多,暂且打住,回到主题。

说了文学和科学,就得说说业余兴趣。说来惭愧,四海再次发现自己原来如此缺乏创意,现下的诸般爱好,竟都是老哥的影响。

小学时,老哥总是找邻居下围棋,几个小时不动弹,我在旁边似懂非懂的看着,每隔十分钟代替老哥动弹一下。后来,缠着老哥教我。老哥笑嘻嘻的拿出棋盘:“你 先来。”我兴奋的拿起棋子,玻璃做的,我觉得像是玉琢的,哎,之前从来没见过玉,要是有人抛砖引玉,估计我得还给他一个玻璃围棋子。我拿着棋子,茫然四 顾,亦然放在棋盘正中,随后得意的看看老哥。老哥笑笑,点三三。又轮到我,想起要做眼,于是在第一颗旁斜放一子,随后一人一子,不久,只见棋盘之上,四面 白旗飘动,中央密密黑眼。结局不言而喻。不到5分钟,天下逐鹿已定。我不服气,问老哥:“怎么你和别人下,都三个小时,轮到我,才5分钟。”老哥摇摇头: “因为你果然喜欢做中央帝王。”我当时自然不懂,老哥又摇摇头:“金边银角草肚皮。”

老哥初中,移情别恋,喜欢上了国际象棋,没棋友,于是又教我下,我照旧不喜欢看棋谱,不过仗着小聪明,屡有斩获,就是说,不是一边倒,虽然每次我的王先被 吃掉,我也总能灭他个象。我以为老哥又要来摇头了,没想到,老哥居然点头:“不错,有点奇思异想,多看看棋谱就行了。”后来,大学里,我一直杀到校队候 选,也没看过棋谱,对手总是被我不按牌理的下法镇住,当然,高手来了,自然是兵败如山倒,在众多美女观众面前狠狠的丢了一把脸。这才后悔,书中自有颜如 玉,果然啊。

老哥初中还喜欢打网球,我自然当仁不让的成了唯一的重点培养对象。二十年后,每次对仗真正的高手时,我总是后悔自己旁门左道的出身,后遗症严重的很,只能 象张德培那样,用速度取胜,当然,结果无非延长了输球的时间。当然,高手总是很有风范,会很仁慈的鼓励我:“小伙子,跑的很快。”晕!

老哥小时候,喜欢去游泳池,我也跟着去。不过,后来差距悬殊。因为老哥去游泳池,只是泡凉。我从小到大,人称拼命三郎,到了水里,也如履平地,就是水花大了一点。后来,读李清照的如梦令,对此深有体会:误入藕花深处,争渡,争渡,惊起一滩鸥鹭。

好像印象中,只有篮球和老哥无关,这大概直接导致了我身高和老哥的差距了。要是,小时候我有现在的身高,肯定不会像姚明这么软绵绵的浪费身高优势,一定会威武百倍的骑在老哥头上。

小时候,总是互相打架,然后跟屁虫似的一起出去逛书店,现在,远隔万水千山,打架的机会也很难得了。








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sihaiyin回复于:2007-05-07 02:11:45 [回复]

to ygumit: well, the questions are getting piled up now :)  For different people, there are different reasons for your questions.  I am not sure what happens to you, but that might be what happens to most MIT students :)   Well, I agree that Math is artistic, and I don't think there is anything wrong with your not loving arts.  The world is versatile and many folded, and that's why it's so interesting.  Enjoy your life and choice, and don't worry too much.  Language is a tool after all.  Use it the way you like, whichever way.  Thanks for discussion, and enjoy talking to you, which is far from wasting time   And sincerely hope to see you more often on my blog.


ygumit回复于:2007-05-06 22:50:57 [回复]

Thanks a lot. Some furthur wonders: :)

1. What's the relationship among logic, analysis and mathematics (2 or 3?) Why while Americans tend to do well in logical reasoning or/and(?) analysis, they hate mathematics? I used to LOVE maths, but now I cannot wait to avoid them.

2. I started to dislike arts since I came to the U.S. I used to like music (if not painting). What's wrong with me?

Well, with the above questions, what I want to say is that:

1. I feel that mathematics is in some ways artistic. (Critique welcome)

2. There must be something wrong with my not loving arts and even the relatively artistic Chinese language any more. I find myself more comfortable in the structural and orderly English world.(Diagnosis welcome)

Anyway, hope this discussion doesn't bore you or take your precious time too much. If it does, simply ignore it. :) Thank you very much again.

One more afterthought: perhaps language is just a series of signals for us to apply to the daily usage in life. The English perspective (application) is more structured whereas the Chinese more artistic?

sihaiyin回复于:2007-05-06 13:52:45 [回复]
For the first question: comparison of US and International students in the field of physical sciences. As far as I know, the majority of US students do not like physical sciences as much as International (especially Asian) students do. But, this might be cheating. Most Asian students like physical sciences simply because there were no other choices in their earlier education. In the high school education, science subjects are always ranked as of the highest priority. For US students, their interests are widely distributed, including arts and philosophy which are not considered as "profitable" subjects by Asian students. So, for those US students who do like sciences, they are usually more interested in it and thus behave better than Asian students do (especially in terms of creativity).

Regarding the second question which can be reframed to be the question of the relationship/interplay between language and personality. The answers is two-folded. 1. Philosophically speaking, yes. One famous linguistic professor said that Language is the noise made when you scratch the surface of brain. It's the overall response of your personality to the input from outside world. It not only reflects your personality, but also re-forms your personality in a subtle yet important way. 2. Physically speaking, still yes. The part of brain which is in charge of the language learning is closely related to the part in charge of logical judging, which in turn affects your ability of learing other sciences, etc.

Regarding the third and more personal question: how do I like English and Chinese. Basically speaking, I strongly believe that they are both languages and thus are essentially the same. If you can master Chinese really good, there should be no problem in mastering English. Of course, Chinese and English are different. Chinese is more artistic, while English is more logic. Nevertheless, they are still fundamentally related to logic and esthesia. So, I don't see any essential difference between the two, as long as you truly love the language itself (i.e., not treating it as purely a tool for communication).

Hope this answers your questions.
ygumit回复于:2007-05-06 00:25:36 [回复]
Hey, I'm just wondering how American students perform in the natural science fields compared to international students at advanced level. How do you like English compared to Chinese? Do you think that language in some way affects people's aptitudes? Or different races have different aptitudes? Just curious. Looking for someone to discuss.
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